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      Finally I could stop and rest for a while. 2 CAs, 1 design assessment, 1 project assessment, 1 formal lab, FYP read up and some discussions on hrm, finally are over. Could you imagine every night rushing for different stuffs? For a few nights I didn't recall how I end up on bed, I just thought of having a short rest.

 

      Wednesday after lunch I went to Christopher's room to nap for half an hour, by the time I woke up, I was so relunctant to go to school. I must be very relaxing in dream? How I wish I could have some spare time to get myself a good rest? How I wish I don't need to go to school any more? At night went to TengHooi's room, once again straight away went into dream. Perhaps other person's bed is an escape for me?

 

      Hence, I was falling sick yesterday evening, and my body forced me to take a long nap. Yet I still had to study until 6:30am before today's CA. It's really an uphill battle. But the tougher battle is, the tougher I am. I need to enter exam mode d...

      Yday was 1 CA and design assessment. Having spent so much time on the design, just like to be assessed as soon as possible so that i can focus on other stuffs... But the outcome was just dissapointing. It's so disheartening to know there were so many things yet to be considered, when I think I am starting to get a grip on design... Teacher's intention was good, because that's the way to learn...but I just getting fed up with the pile up of works.

 

      With so many things to do, I've lost my focus. I've lost my patience. I am getting annoyed. I will prove to myself, no matter what, I won't lose to anyone.

      Did design in lab till 9 sth. Burnt the 3rd midnight oil - finished formal project report, sent resume for networking night, read up some fyp materials, read up on java projects requirement and some work for hrm meeting. Still have many things to do, what is completely untounched is my own studies. Haiz. But how could I concentrate fully on core's revision (/learning) while there are so many group works and projects?

 

      It's not about perfectism. To rush through everything and get half correct intepretation do more harm than good, be it studies or projects or design. Quick to make intepretation without investigating is just enough to make level of understanding from all angles - shallow.

 

      But next week 2CAs're coming, design assessment, fyp should meet prof since it's already been 2 weeks we haven't meet. For this uniquely busy schedule, it's just going to be the first test. It's either make or break. Haiz. But not everything could be under my control...If not, I could worry less.

      When time comes close to graduation, everyone is getting on their nerves by various job opportunities. Does first job matters? Perhaps it didn't really affect much in this fast changing era, where social mobility is high. But for those who's standing on the cross road, it really matters, as it reflects his/her choice and projected path over the next few years.

 

     What are determining factors of choosing a job? Money, Interest, Environment, Career development and bla bla bla. For an adult who's getting near to live on his own for the rest of his life, money's importantce is getting more and more obvious. Reality is harsh. But how would it affect the pursue of interest? How much compensation is required for the tradeoff? Do we, undergraduates that are getting near to graduate, study just for the sake of future, or for the possiblity of advance into higher level in academy, or for the broader option and social mobility? Is study what you like? Is work what you study? Is work what you like?

 

     Choosing job may seem an exhausting thinking process, but would you rather not be given choices? Compare to those who never have chance to get in ivory tower, undergraduates for sure have a stronger competitive edge over them. But if we mis-turn this edge, we would be in a worse situation than them. Would we?

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     If you were to rank important characteristics in teamwork among "Capability", "Communication", "Commitment", how would you do? Which should comes first? Communication or commitment? I could only sure that capability doesn't matter as much as commitment and communication skills.

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     Time is never enough, especially in final year. But since it could neither be created nor destroyed, the only thing left to do is time management and proper scheduling. I am not a fans of scheduling since young as I have good memory. But now I am forced to adopt this habit because loading memory need energy. After going through all classes, it's near to exhaustion. This piece of reminder somehow serves as a external pushing force, to fulfil what's planned before. It reminds me of consequences of not following it, things drag and jumble up and turn into mess, rushing this and rushing that, having risk of missing this and missing that. But schedule can never be perfect, if I can follow it for about 80%, I would be quite satisfy. Though in most cases, I extend it till late night to complete, in which, I have to sleep during class to compensate. Is it wise? I really have no idea. Perhaps I would sleep in class also even I got enough sleep. ...

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